Why We Stay In A Slump

I’ve just moved into my new home in a different city, and I love it!  I’m in a bigger city - more choices and more variety.  And more health choices!  Restaurants, grocery shopping, fitness centers… you name it, there are more options here.

The only problem is that I’m in a slump.  I got out of my workout routine over the last couple of weeks with all of the moving craziness.

And I’ve been eating crap since January.  Why??  I ask myself that every day.

Why am I still driving to get breakfast burritos instead of making myself a bowl of oatmeal in the mornings?

Why haven’t I joined a gym yet?

Why am I drinking Diet Cokes instead of water?

I think the answer is a combination of comfort and low self esteem.  I would never call myself a person with low self esteem… I’ve worked for years on my inner confidence and the way I talk to myself.

But the truth is… I choose to let myself down day after day.  I choose to deprive myself of nutrition and choose fatty sodium filled processed foods rather than whole nutritious food.  And I do these things knowingly.

Could it be that the reason we women keep eating crap when we know we need nutrition is that we don’t think we deserve it?

I know - we’ve all heard that self-help stuff.  And if you’re like me, you think that’s not it at all.  But what is it then?  If you are anything like me… it’s this undefinable feeling… this something you just can’t put your finger on.

You just do it - well, because.  Because it’s easy and convenient and comfortable.

But when you KNOW those things are hurting you… making you gain weight… making you look FAT in your favorite clothes… and you do it ANYWAY… there’s a serious breakdown in how you treat yourself.

In how I treat MYSELF.

Today, right now… I forgive myself, first of all, for abusing my body and for not listening to my better judgment.  This is a journey, and I will not be angry with myself for being on a journey.

But I also commit to choosing to be loving to myself.  To make honest & supportive decisions for my body.  I’m afraid to make this commitment in writing… what if I let myself down?  But I will nonetheless.  Because I know that there is something I can do more than I currently am.  I can drink more water.

Or eat smaller portions of the processed crap I seem to be addicted to.

And I can say “NO” to that junk when I’m honest and brave and strong enough to do so.

And I can eat some whole fruits and vegetables for goodness sakes!

Heres to us - you & me - getting more loving and supportive with ourselves.

Sincerely & with truth and love,
Bethany